Have you every wondered what a difference a single day can make ? Some of us may say as I have said, every day is the same, I wake up and try to fit everything I have to do in the span of a few hours: make time for my wife, make sure my sister is going well, check in with the parents form time to time, look after 6 pets, you all know correct, pay the bills work as many jobs as you can without fatiguing yourself to the point of medical attention.
Some of us might say, well my wedding day and subsequent night changed my life, the birth of my children, when I met my significant other, when I endured some great pain or trial [ cancer, sickness, poverty, homelessness] and came out better.
And yet at the same time all of us have been, I cant think of the word in english, boulversé in French, if anyone knows french. All of us have been shaken up inside from sometimes the most ordinary of things, the cry of a child, the wimpering of a dog, a beautiful sunset, an anonymous act of kindness. How do we reconcile the two feelings?, having everyday being the same, while at the same time having every act, notion, or thing, <insert some vague noun here> exist as a gateway for the deepest emotion a human being can feel, emotions that go beyond definitions?
Is there an answer? There is no one answer, everyone has to find it themselves, if they want to find it. As I have learned a lot over the last year, finding and seeking are two different things. Many a times it has happened that some remaining seeking and never find. I remember that quote I think I posted somewhere on my blog
In order to catch a gazelle everyone must run and give chase, but it is not everyone who give chase that succeeds in catching the gazelle.
For me I have realized that many many times searching is in a way a barrier to finding, its another veil. Why you say, because its a very subtle process. We say I want to be happy, and we look at what we are missing in our lives and try to become something to attain that happiness. I want to be respected and treated like I am royalty (who doesnt), so I need to get money havea porshe for every day of the week etc. In seeking we are many a times becoming what we imagine what we are seeking for to be.
Some people want to find God, or want to be revered teachers, so they outwardly act according to their definition of a great teacher, maybe a special style of dress, a way of talking, etc. However what makes a teacher isnt dress or way or talking but somehting deeper.
What do you think?